Friday, December 30, 2011

2011, you shall be missed!

YO blog! 

Two more days to new year. Any new resolution? I haven't get to decide mine, since I had not achieved the resolutions I made for year 2011. Perhaps I shall carry those forward to year 2012. 


Phew... 2011 huh? Hmm, What have I missed? Basically nothing. I'm still alive and breathing and are still fit to roam the land of the Earth. 2011 has been a memorable journey for me. Let's pretend that we're in a sci-fi movie and the ceiling, the walls and the floor are just one big screen that would just whorl as the scene changes. Ready? Set... GO!


At the beginning of the year, granddad from me mam's side was seriously ill. So ill, that he lost weight and we barely recognised him. It's so lucky that we still have you Grandpop!


Then Shortly after, I had my TP! Great experience! Felt like I've became a major protagonist in a tiny village of dwarves. I love the kids and most potently, They LOVE me! Of course, not everyday is sunny. I had those occasional moments where it's cloudy, windy or even stormy! My particular memorable one was with one of my favourite boys! (If you're not sure of the story, refer back to my older posts). However towards the end of TP, I had a lot of work to do, and it somewhat took a toll on me. LOL Anyhow, moving on!


Right after I finished my TP, somewhere around May, we received a bad news about my grandpop living in Perlis. We've received intelligence that he had passed on. Mom and dad had just came back from the West Malaysia, and they'd insisted him to live with us. But then, he declined. Ah well, there's nothing we can do about it. Fate is in the hands of god. If I were to die now, I would! Although I have so little memory with him, but his blood (along with others) still courses through my veins. Family will always be family, no matter what or how far you're separated.  


When  I returned, our TP results were out. My hopes were high and never had I anticipated so much in my life. I was bummed when I got a B+. So devastated that I cried. But I was glad of my GK family and my mom for supporting me through and through. After the news sank in, I told myself: " B+ is not so bad after all"


Then things started to get busy. Me and Dayang had to rush up and down to UBD, MOE and also to James Hon for our masters application. And I had to tend to my aunt (who came back with us) and I had to please her every now and then. I tell you, the day when we bade her goodbye, I practically whopped in the airport. Mind you, people were starring but I couldn't care less. Now,


September came, I had my silver jubilee and ladida dida. Ugh, Come now, let's move on. Let's not dwell in something that's as finite as age, will ya? Oh by the way, the day my aunt went back to Malaysia was the best birthday present I could ever get. I'm mean, I know, but you don't know you're talking about. Try living with her and you would hand me a box of tissue out of empathy.


Then the big day came, I got my SECOND UPPER DEGREE in B.A in Primary Education. I was uber proud of myself and it has been hard work (and lots of procrastination too). 5 years man, 5 FREAKING LONG years. But I reaped what I sow. I stuck to what I vowed when I hand in the application form. The certificate I hold is for you mom! And I hope you're proud and happy of me! :'D Oh, And then I graduated from UBD. I remember I was rather emo sitting at the back seat of our car. "There couldn't be anything else that would make me any happier", I said to myself. And I STAND CORRECTED (or maybe sit corrected, LOL). I received a news that I, along with the others had been granted a full scholarship for pursuing my Masters degree.   



Skipping the misfortunate event dealing with the scholarship, everything was a complete mess. I had half- a mind to withdraw but considering that I'd worked too hard to get this far, I swallowed the medicine whole. And look where the others and I are now... Never had I dreamed that I would go this far. 


So blog, considering that I've written this 400 years worth of reading essay, I hope you've forgiven me for not visiting you. Now, if you will excuse me, I have a 4000 words assignment to write on. What a good way of spending my holiday and new year, huh? Nonetheless, wish me all the best. ;D Till we meet again someday. 


  

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Mother...

Mother...
You brought light into my life,
You are the sustenance and the warmth that I need,
You moved heavy mountains off my chest,
You nag with guidance... In hope that I would be the best. 

But then mother, you are the best thing that's ever happened to me.
I hope you are proud of me as I'm proud of you... 
I miss you and I longed for you. 
And I will pray for your health.


LOVE, from your homesick son. :'(

Monday, September 5, 2011

My silver jubilee

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to Tan Chun Yang,
Happy birthday to me! :)

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Dear blog...

Dear blog,

it's been a while since I've dropped by. I hope you are fine. A lot has changed in the past few months. But I am still the same old me. The same obese, fat-loving bastard who can't be helped anymore. Yep that's me. No need to consider my feelings. I'm no human afterall. All the fats in me are blocking all the insinuation right back at ya.

So dear blog, give me your best critisicm. I'm sure I won't bite. :)

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I'm also...

I'm also a human. There are times when I feel inadequate. Enuf said. :'(

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Result....

Result is out... I got a B+. For once, I never longed for an A this badly. Most of the GK members got an A. I'm so happy for them. 

Normally, I would be smiling from ear to ear hearing that I got a B+. Nonetheless, this time I was rather sad. Sad, would be an understatement. Like I said, never had I ever feel so longing to score an A in my overall result.  I did my very best, I tried my hardest, I barely slept just to get an A. But I still score a B. Perhaps it's fate. 

Perhaps my father is speaking the truth? That I'm never gonna be exceptional. That I never be able to surpass my own self. That I will forever be, as he said it countless of time: "stupid". Am i not challenging myself hard enough? Am I not ambitious enough? Am I weak? 

The thought is killing me... 


Saturday, June 11, 2011

Where's my soulmate?

My apologies for the long absence. After all, absence only make the heart grow fonder, is it not? Of late, I've been in a strange mood and I can't quite put my fingers on it. Imagine me going to see a psychiatrist and weren't able to tell him the problem. 

Oh well, until I know what or who or when or which or why the culprit's bugging me, I want to share a song lyric with you. I've always been a fan of Natasha Bedingfield and this song hit home of what I ALWAYS feel. So here goes:

SOULMATE: NATASHA BEDINGFIELD
Incompatible, it don't matter though
'Cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do, you're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr(s). Lovable is already in my life?
Right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit?
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Oh, somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If you've never heard of the song, I suggest you go to youtube and start searching the song. :)