5 gone, 1 more to go...

Whipeeeeee....

Exam this semester is quite crappy, I must say...
But for now, after my last exam on the 30th, then im off to holiday mood land...

I'm actually going to Singapore this holiday. I'm very excited to meet my singaporean friends, namely: Shin Pei, Hannah, Teresa, Wei Han and Geok Lan... At the same time, I can't help but worry. I'm going there alone with my mom... n i have this tendencies of getting lost.... bahhhh... (biting nails). n i dun actually have any plans... i was saying it to my mom, n she, without a second thought agreed. wat was i actually thinking? LOL

OH CRAP!! i totally forgot that i have JLPT exam on the 5th... ahhh shuckssss... there goes my holiday planning after the 30th...

The Orphan

Deceive not of her innocent look

I just watched 'the orphan' for the midnight show with two of my very good friends at the mall, Gadong.... What I can say about the movie is, it is a very well plotted movie and everything will make sense at the end of the movie. I was clutching the collar of my shirt up to my ears everytime, the movie gets intense. I definitely give this movie a two thumbs up... We can't even stop talking in the car. I definitely want to buy the DVD once it's released. Until then, enjoy it in the cinema... By the way, the name of the child is Esther.... AND I'd like to say, there really is something wrong with Esther.... Definitely wrong...

Oh and one final thing, I apologise for the long absence... I hope I can update this more often. But I'll see about it....

Making a come back

Hi...

It has been a while....

But here I am, making a new come back... hee hee

As you are all aware, I had not been keeping my promises for the past months.

So sorry for that...

So stay tune for more updates... *wink wink*

In loving memory of...

Death... A fate that is shared by everyone...Wealth... Age... Possession... all does not matter... It will not put a stopper to death..



In the morning of New Year... On the very day that we should be celebrating... A bad news greeted us... Dumfounded, all I could say was:"Which grandma?" Behind my eyes, my thoughts were: "This can't be happening! It shouldn't be happening!! I refused to believe it... I have to see this with my own eyes..." Guilt pressured my chest... COnfusion swirled at the back of my mind... A little twinge of sadness haunted my heart... Fear choked my lungs... For all matters, I no.. we had lost our loved one...



As I set my eyes on her, her face was serene although pale, her body did not move... She couldn't be sleeping... She could have gone miles away from here... Tears streaked down my cheeks as I kissed her forehead... This is it. The last day that I could lay my eyes on her. This is it. The forever goodbye. It pained me to hear my other younger relatives asking for explanation: "Dad, why are you crying?" "Grandma, why are you lying over there?" They could not understand, not being able to fathom death out of their innocent mind...



As they carried the coffin to the grave, the tears that I held on bursts... There wasn't time for ego... There couldn't be time... Grief, no sumting beyond grief filled my heart... I felt empty, the heat radiated from her and the sustenance that she gave weren't present anymore. Walking on the jagged pebbled road barefootd, it seemed appropriate for me... Like a punishment for not saying a proper goodbye... The skin that were spliited open, the wounds that were sheared from my skin, the blood that gushed out from the wound, nothing is to be compared to the sorrow that I felt...



The time has finnaly come... This is our final goodbye... No more grandma to look after us anymore. No more grandma for us to kiss or shake hands with. No more grandma to visit to in the hospital... For god had given her the wonders... For god had loved the grandma more than we ever loved her. For God had ended her endless suffering...



Goodbye grandma, we love you... You're forever in our heart...

May you rest in peace

Siti Hajar binti Abdullah Dato Maharaja Setia Dian a.k.a Linggang binti Dato Maharaja Setia Dian.